Another call I wish I didn’t want to answer. The fleeting thought that if the words weren’t spoken aloud then it wouldn’t be true. Reality hits about the time I drag my finger across the phone screen to unlock it and accept the call.
“Tricia, is Charles with you?” My mothers wavering voice confirms my fears. This isn’t good news.
“No mom, he went out for a run” I walk out of the room leaving Dash playing and sit down on the bed, knowing I will fall apart and hoping to spare my son.
“I wish I could tell you this in person.” My mom is at my grandmothers. She has put her life on hold to care for my Granny.
“Just tell me.” I’m already silently crying.
She goes on to explain that my Granny had just seen the doctor and the news wasn’t good. The week before last she was in the hospital for blood clots in her lungs. She has so much fluid in her lungs and now everywhere in her body that she is unable to recline. When she lays back she can’t breath. It’s no longer just affecting her sleep, its causing her to be unable to tolerate the daily radiation treatments (where she needs to lay down) for her lung cancer. They’ve suspended chemo and now she is unable to handle radiation.
This doctor is very kind,but frank -telling her she has very little time left, mere weeks.
I’m sobbing by now. My mother goes on to say that my Granny has requested a party. She wants all of her family gathered around her to say goodbye.
My mom apologizes again that she isn’t there to tell me in person and I’m bewildered. How can she apologize for such a thing? She is exactly where she needs to me.
And by the next morning I’m where I need to be as well-with my Granny.
Beautiful Granny Rose at her 70th birthday in March
I have many obligations which are important to me, but NOTHING is more important than soaking up the time I have left with her.
Your granny sounds like such an awesome lady.
Eff you, Cancer.
God Bless you and your family.
Wow, Tricia. She is a really beautiful lady. i am so sorry. I am praying for you!
I haven’t been to your blog in awhile. It looks so cute. Love the design!
Praying for y’all.
So sorry to hear about your Granny, Tricia. Thoughts and hugs to you and your family.
I’m so sorry your granny and family have to go through this, and so so glad you can be there. Much love to you and your family.
I hope you (and Dash) are able to spend as much time as possible with her! My grandma passed away from cancer when I was 8 and I so so so wish I had had her in my life for longer. Now I channel that sadness toward fundraising for the ACS.
(((hugs))) Your grandmother is beautiful!
Dear Tricia…what a beautiful and vital birthday girl she was in March! I send you so much love and many, many blessings for your whole family. I do hope the time you get to spend with her has the opportunity to feel joyous and that you allow yourself the time to feel and to grieve and to heal. My heart is with you
Oh, Tricia. I’m so sorry. I pray for your Granny and you and your family. I pray for God to move; I pray for Him to heal her, here on this earth, in her flesh. I am so sorry. All I can really say is that I will pray.
And, Granny Rose is beautiful. I want to look 55 when I’m 70 – just like Granny Rose.
Praying.
I hope you get to spend many wonderful days with her. She seems like a strong woman and beautiful woman! Praying for her and your family.
Treasure, love and then love some more. May your granny Rose find peace and leave the pain behind. Sending you and your family all my love xx
hi tricia, i have been thinking about you and your family and your grandmother so much this week. sending you all the love and prayers in my heart. god bless. xoxo
Many prayers for you and your family during this time. I hope that you are all able to soak up the days.
So sorry for you and your family. Hopefully you and your family can find some peace and joy at the party and celebrate her life. I think a party is a great idea.
Your grandmother seems like an amazing lady and you are very blessed to have her in your life! I am so sorry you are going through this! Stay strong and my prayers are with you and your family.
Prayers going out to your family and may the good Lord be with you and your family. Be strong. I know it can be very tough!
What an awesome granny. Enjoy the party, make awesome new memories and soak up all the love. Dash will love that you will be able to tell him so many wonderful things about her!
your grandmother is beautiful!! i hope that you are able to spend as much time with her as you can. this is never easy and I know your granny is so thankful to have you around. praying for you and your family. hugs.
You grandmother is soo beautiful! Can’t believe she is 70! I’m so sorry about the cancer. I’ll keep you and your family in my thoughts!
Oh my…you and your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I went through a similar situation with mine and one of my favorite memories my family has (I unfortunately missed it taking a final, but had my own time) was them getting together to give her a beautiful pedicure. She wanted to go with pretty feet! I got there for her to show me. Enjoy your party…make memories – sweet and treasured
My first thought was “wow! 70 is SO young.” I’m sorry for everything your Granny is going through. It is tough to see someone struggle like that. I had to see my grandma struggle as well. My heart goes out to you and your family.
I barely if ever pick up the phone because all the time it’s people I don’t want to talk to! I’m much happier now that I don’t pick up the phone.